When you assigned the bliss assignment I got really excited. I was going on vacation the next week and was really worried about missing class. So this put me at ease and really gave me time to think about my creative environment.
For the last 4 years or so I have been working nonstop. I started this degree program in 2006 and now I just now finishing it up. During the last couple months I have kind of woken up. I worked my 20’s away. I worked myself into a good position at a company, and I plan on staying here for a while. It makes dealing with student loans a lot easier. But now that I am realizing that I am not happy, it is hard to surrender my work responsibilities. I havent taken a vacation in years, I hardly see my friends, and when I get home I am so tired from working and the commute that I don’t want to do much other than watch tv or go to bed.
So I decided I was going on vacation. My best friend from high school and I went to Disney World and on a cruise. We left the boyfriends at home and set out. I had never been to Disney World that that was amazing. That place is on some kind of pixie dust crack. Must be good stuff because that place is the real deal. We went in the middle of the week. The stars and planets must have been in alignment because the crowds we not bad at all. After 2 days at Disnet we drove to Miami for a cruise to the Bahamas. Long story short, I haven’t been that relaxed …..ever. I forgot what is was like to not be on a schedule. I often work weekends so I don’t get to sleep in. I slept in everyday on the cruise. When we went to the beach, I didn’t have a care in the damn world other than if I needed more rum. This is what I need. It clears my head and lets my brain do its thing. Being with my friend, it was so easy to have a good time. I can work well under pressure. But when I am not under pressure or if I am not already planning my days three weeks into the future, my work is more natural and has more of my esthetic. I am sure this is true with anyone, but it was eye opening for me. I came back feeling so refreshed. I have been killing myself for this company. This work isn’t what I imagined myself doing, but it pays well. YUK! I have become the person that I have always felt sorry for.
I get three weeks of vacation a year. I am taking my capstone next semester and I am seriously considering going to the beach for a week to work on it for spring break.
My vision board is some photos and words from my vacation. It also has some of my friends on it. I am taking 21 credit hours right now and working 55 hours a week. I need to chill out. I am 26 years old. I need to have fun. Everything I do it easier, better, and more pleasing if I am not trying to kill myself to get everything accomplished. I always plan to much. Hopefully that will start to change. I am going to hang this above my computer in my office.